The Melody of an Ambulance

So I just got back from talking to my biological parents
Telling them about how I’m angry with them
No, wait,
fucking furious
I knew I shouldn’t have expected anything
The routine words came out of their mouths

Jody: “hey, i regret it every single day. i’m a dick. [insert crying here]“
Chris: “We were stupid. And you’re allowed to be mad, don’t feel bad about it. But you just have to learn to deal with that anger. It’ll never go away”

I am defeated
I am scared
I don’t know if I can do this