The Melody of an Ambulance

So I’m making plans

Fun plans

Like I’ll be with Jenelle this weekend

AND

I’m going to visit Dustin [hopefully] on the 9th

Wooo

I miss them both

this plan making keeps me going. steady as a drum.

I’m scared for you right now

I’m scared again

I don’t want you to disappear

That was, hands down, the worst month of my life

And I can’t relive that

I know you don’t want to go through that again

So why drink?

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this sucks

i’m scared i won’t get better too

but i don’t know how else to be

so it’s hard to change

you have to understand that

Fuck you MM

i’m done

it’s over

you can’t control me anymore

you can’t hurt me anymore

it’s finally over

because i said it’s over

I miss Jodi and Jenelle

a lot

i’m scared

i’m addicted to watching movies online.
it’s all i do anymore.
i’m a sick person

i’m tired of fighting, okay?
and it is my fault :[
fuckkk

You’ll never be anything like Michael. But that doesn’t matter. Because Michael was made up. Michael wasn’t a real person. He was an impossible standards.

The real Michael, Michael McDermott, is a torn little boy who can love until the sun goes down.

So I’m done comparing.

I’m done waiting.

I’m done.

Because I love you.
I really don’t see what anyone can see in anyone else but you.
And I’m so glad that I’ve found you.

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i found this song i’ve been looking for, for over 2 years now.

“superstar” by sonic youth.

so amazing

goodnight.

I don’t feel right.
But I can’t stop.
 I like him.
It’s just a stupid little crush.

i love you nate

Just finished watching Wristcutters: A Love Story

it’s amazing

go see it

rinow

please

I feel like I’m going to blow chunks everywhere

I’m really sad

really really really sad

because of michael

because of school

because of next year

so many reasons 

good news:
I’m buying Wristcutters: A Love Story

 bad news:
it’s not coming until March 25th.
son of a bitch.

I picture you in the sun
Wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees
Asking for sympathy

You always tell me that change comes from inside

And that you have to do it yourself

But I just can’t help but believe that I’m getting a new beginning handed to me right now

And I’ve gotta believe in something!